Happy New Years Everyone!!

This is to...
-To every girl that dresses cute --- not skanky

- To every girl who wants to be called beautiful -- not hot.

-To every girl that will spend her whole day -- looking for the perfect present for you.

- To every girl who gets her heart broken because he chose -- the whore instead.

- To every girl that would die to have a -- decent boyfriend.

- To every girl who would just like once to be treated -- like a princess.

- To every girl that cries at night because of -- another heartbreak.

- To every girl that wont get down on her knees and open her mouth -- just to get a boyfriend.

- To every girl that just wants -- to hold hands.

- To every girl that kisses him -- with meaning.

- To every girl who just wishes -- he cared more.

- To every girl who would just once want a guy to give -- their jacket up when they are cold.

- To every girl who just wants -- him to call.

- To every girl who lies awake at night -- thinking about him.

- To every girl that just wants -- to cuddle.

- To every girl that just wants to sleep with him -- without having sex everytime.

- To every girl that is scared to put her heart out there again because -- she has been hurt so many times or so badly.

- To every girl who shows how much she cares -- and gets nothing back.

- To every girl that thought maybe this could be -- the one.

- To every girl that believes -- in her dreams.

- To every girl that would do anything so she could -- achieve those dreams.

- To every girl that laughs -- at stupid stuff when she actually doesnt think it is funny.

- To every girl who is just looking for that one and only -- and is having a rough time along the way.

- To every girl that has been cheated on because -- shes not a whore who gives it up to any guy.

- To every girl that doesnt want a guy who -- just plays with her emotions but actually cares about how she feels.

- To every girl who wants -- words backed up with actions.

- To every girl that fell for all the lies -- only to find themselves alone in the end.

- To every girl that gave her heart away -- to have it shoved back in her face.



((Things'll get better.))



-----If you are a nice girl repost this as: "To every girl."

-----If you are a guy that thinks every girl should try to think about even a few of these things...repost it as "I am looking for this girl."

-----If your a guy thats taken write "I have this girl."

Bring on the numberous shots of Bacardi Razz, ScrewDrivers and the 3 people I know intimately</b> This should prove to be an interesting night. Cuz the guys are doin 100 Proof SoCo. If I don't get what I want tonight, I'm gonna throw a major tempertantrum. LOL


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You,

I can't fight this, I wouldn't even know where to start if I could. All logic and friends say to just turn and walk away. And I see that as the best option. Still there is something hanging there telling me that that isn't what I need to do at the moment. I'm not a fucking doormat, and you will see that given enough time.

I've already pissed off loved ones because of this situation, and that's tough. I don't want them to be mad at me because i'm doing what my heart told me to do. I shouldn't have picked you over them last night and I know that. And sadly, I don't think I chose you because I thought spending time with you was the right answer. I was avoiding a situation that you know nothing about. And never will.

I didn't stay to keep me in your head. I'm not around so that you still see me. I have nothing to do with your family giving you the 'Manda is good for you speech'. And all of that is the truth. I wish the family would back off. Of course I want you, I wouldn't try when I do, if I didn't. But you also have to see that I stayed because I think we need to be friends, I don't want to loose you totally. And please see that no matter how this ends, I will be around because I am family.

This has got to be one of the oddest situations I've ever found myself in. There are times that I just have no clue as to what I should do. You can forget me totally, and I'll never be that lucky. I don't have you, not even a little. I can tell from last night that you are really thinking bout her. And I have to live with that, cuz I could never fight that in a million years. I don't know that you'll go back to her, but I do know you'll never let her let you go. At least that's how I see it now. I could be wrong, but that's what I have to think to keep things in perspective.

I've had too many lectures about walking away from you and not getting hurt. And I know I should follow them. And who knows maybe sometime soon, that's how I'll see things too. I do know that I'm not waiting for you Josh. It's as simple as that. I have a theory on us. I'm not waiting Josh. If and when you decide that you want to see what could be with us, we'll see how I feel. If you go back to her, I'm done, I'm not fucking around with that for the rest of my life. If you pick me by some odd chance, then you have one chance. That's it, like I said, I'm not fucking around with being the other woman between you and her. It's not fair to me and you know that.

I was proud of you when you found the balls to say that last night, though it was far from all of that needed to be said. We both know that. And maybe that's where the biggest problem lies. That we can't seem to get that shit out in the open. Part of me hopes you heard me and dad talking last night. I know you have great hearing, so it wouldn't surprise me if you did hear it.

This shouldn't be this complicated already, and that's probably a sign. I want you to do what you think you need to do, and that's probably gonna be Michelle, and I hope that works and makes you happy. I'll never forget you or what happened, but i'm not waiting.

Take it however you want, I'm not walking away, but I'm not waiting.



ME

I hurt and sketched out a good friend tonight. And for that I am truly sorry. I didn't look or think before I gave you this link. You know i ♥ you for you. Or at least I hope you do. I hope you forgive me.


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